Beneath the Pain

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I have never known a depth
Quite like the ocean your eyes hold

Waves crash and your soul screams in anguish
As you cry another thousand tears tonight

Only for the tide to roll in again with the morning light 
Holding more reminders of the grief

I weep for your pain, darling  
Because I see my own heartache reflected in those eyes

I drown in the weight of it
I sink into the deep end with you

Holding your hand as we fall 
Because I know you’re not scared of the darkness

Or of facing the rejection wounds
You have borne for a hundred lifetimes

But I am

I’m afraid of knowing who I am beneath this skin
Of melting into the pain in order to let go of it

Of feeling through the suffering of what has always haunted my subconscious 
The emotions that resemble death

And somehow still survive

It’s always death, isn’t it? 
The old continues to die so the new can resurrect

And on and on it goes forever
Until our souls reunite with the reflection of our Divine self 

To see the magic of who we have been all along 
Our capacity for connection and intimacy and love beneath the ocean of pain 

And I don’t ever want to let go of your hand.