I don’t want to remember the ways you were good to me
How you spoke to me softly and gently
How you said you wanted to love me the way I deserved
Because something stopped you
And I still don’t really understand
How you could look at me
As I dared to embrace a soul as tormented as yours
And yet, leave me wanting
Leave me wishing that our laughter was not so innocent
That your eyes didn’t look so deeply into mine
That we didn’t fool ourselves into thinking we were good for each other
And I often wish none of it happened
In hopes that I could erase every pain that surfaced in your presence
And all of the good things along with it
But it seems that I cannot wish you away — because you changed me
Nor can I be the girl I was
Before the day I found you
It’s just that sometimes I miss her,
How she danced carelessly without your words ringing in her ears
Words that spoke of how she was not beautiful enough for you
Sure, she knows now, that she is more than enough in every way
But your words still echo
In the distance
And I hope someday they will subside
As her own voice begins to carry much louder than yours
Proclaiming every single good thing found in her, found in me